silent wanderings.

My life is so messed up and as I try to pick up the pieces, I have to shatter lives as well. In order to not hurt people, I end up hurting people. It's amazing how love blinded my eyes and I look back and realize that everything was fake but my heart was just moved by few words that made me feel instantaneously special. I fear that I have taken this secret too far and that because of my wrong doings, anger now invades your heart. This anger could lead to disaster and destruction of everything that I am. I pray to God that this does not happen but with every second my heart beats faster.

I'm addicted to this past lifestyle.
It disgusts me. makes me scream. makes me cry.
This time I really did wrong.

I got involved with your feelings. It was fun, it wasn't supposed to last, but now I can't stop.
You're nice, but your part of something I no longer associate with.

You don't understand that who you met is not "me."
More like an evil twin that needs to  die.

I'm in too deep.